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transgender - why and what for? 3/12/2006
Recently I've been „tumbling“ rather extensively in Wikipedia, mainly in and around transgender-topics, and have had to discover that the whole topic is completely unnecessarily made complicated by „most“ people. Why that's so, and what that's good for, is a topic of its own, which I'll lay aside here and now. This (too) wide-spread tendency to complicate the whole matter is what I want to counter here - with something very simple and pragmatic.

Why I am (or „came to be“) transgender? I absolutely couldn't, I'm wholly sure, avoid it, and I didn't succeed in „giving it up“, despite repeated and longer attempts over decades. The most substantial effect of these attempts probably is a „messed up“ life, considerably due to the substantial depressive „thrusts“, which these attempts triggered and/or contributed to. That's why. Period.

What is „having to be“ resp. live transgender good for? Because for me only through this a door opened, enabling me to begin to like resp. accept myself at all. But, as life goes, there was (still is, and most likely always will be for the rest of my life) a very big drawback/catch. In a nutshell it's what I'd now like to call „the grim wall of lacking social acceptance“. What kind of „choice“ is that supposed to be, in which a person finds themselves „placed“, irrevocably and merciless. Either follow and live one's „bent“, one's transgender disposition, and begin to like and accept oneself at all, or „give it up“, to be liked and accepted by my („normal“) fellow humans to a reasonable extent.

Hardly astonishing then, if I occasionally think and feel, and now write it here, „you/those“ - that make life so unnecessarily difficult for someone like me - „you“ can all go to ...

P.S.: A person can be and/or become (very) feminine/female, without wanting or being able to be/become (100%, if at all) „woman“ (also see transwoman). For me personally the „comfortable“ 100% heteronormative „option transsexuality“ is absolutely anything other than an option – it would just be a new agony. Thus, „you“ can all go to ... where fondness begins, if you can (and want to).